Friday, July 26, 2013

To The Future "Me"

Confession:  Sometimes I lay awake at night, kind of freaking out about what's next.

When we were newlyweds, we didn't have much of anything, except for the slew of gifts from our wedding and a hand me down full size mattress.  Over the next 10 years, we accumulated quite a bit of stuff.  Roomfuls of furniture and appliances, children, and a hefty collection of Pez dispensers.  Then we decided to move to Haiti and sold or gave away nearly everything and moved away.  Then we started over, except we had learned some important life lessons along the way about needs versus wants, and the collection of "stuff" was significantly smaller.  Now, we're just six days away from moving back to the U.S. and I realized, we're right back where we started eleven years ago, only this time we also have three little crazies to start fresh with.

When I think about "having nothing", admittedly I get a little scared.  I mentally begin to add up the cost of a vehicle, washer and dryer, beds, plates and bowls, towels, sheets, pots and pans, someplace to sit... and it is overwhelming.  Oh yes, a source of income and place to live would be super awesome too.  No Big Deal.

Here's the thing.  I know God will provide.  I know it because He has done it before, again and again and again.  But secretly, I'm scared He won't provide in a way that I want Him to.  So... this is me being very honest with the utmost desire to be able to point back to this time from somewhere in the future, and be able to say to myself, my children, and any one else in need of encouragement, and be able to say, "Look, that seemed downright impossible and huge, and look how God sheltered us and provided for us."

Do you have a story about how God provided for you or your family?  Could sharing it be an encouragement to others?


jomazorl said...

Though I don't have any advice. I am on the other end. We are moving to Haiti in the next couple of months and I keep do I ship everything over with us or do we sell it all. My mind changes everyday. Best of luck with your move.

Tifanni said...

Know that we're praying for your family. Despite getting rid of so much of our stuff, God replenished what we needed when things fell through for us. In the course of a weekend, we ended up with a living room of furniture. Still now, the unknown is so hard. I'm excited to hear how everything comes together for you.

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