To The Future "Me"

Confession:  Sometimes I lay awake at night, kind of freaking out about what's next.

When we were newlyweds, we didn't have much of anything, except for the slew of gifts from our wedding and a hand me down full size mattress.  Over the next 10 years, we accumulated quite a bit of stuff.  Roomfuls of furniture and appliances, children, and a hefty collection of Pez dispensers.  Then we decided to move to Haiti and sold or gave away nearly everything and moved away.  Then we started over, except we had learned some important life lessons along the way about needs versus wants, and the collection of "stuff" was significantly smaller.  Now, we're just six days away from moving back to the U.S. and I realized, we're right back where we started eleven years ago, only this time we also have three little crazies to start fresh with.

When I think about "having nothing", admittedly I get a little scared.  I mentally begin to add up the cost of a vehicle, washer and dryer, beds, plates and bowls, towels, sheets, pots and pans, someplace to sit... and it is overwhelming.  Oh yes, a source of income and place to live would be super awesome too.  No Big Deal.

Here's the thing.  I know God will provide.  I know it because He has done it before, again and again and again.  But secretly, I'm scared He won't provide in a way that I want Him to.  So... this is me being very honest with the utmost desire to be able to point back to this time from somewhere in the future, and be able to say to myself, my children, and any one else in need of encouragement, and be able to say, "Look, that seemed downright impossible and huge, and look how God sheltered us and provided for us."

Do you have a story about how God provided for you or your family?  Could sharing it be an encouragement to others?